I can only hold on as long as my heart isn't shattered.
It's already broken. Cracked. Disintegrating on the side.
But until the last piece corrodes into sand,
I hold onto hope.
Tell me that you don't want me.
Tell me that you don't need me.
Tell me that you don't want to feel my hand interlocked with yours.
Tell me that you don't want to breathe into my ear or sleep next to me.
When it's cold outside and the wind blows,
Don't kiss me.
Don't hug me.
Don't wrap your arms around me.
Let me linger in my solitude.
Get out of my head.
It hurts to think about what was once us,
And is now you versus me.
At night, when I go to sleep,
Don't creep into my dreams
With your sweetness,
Your eyes, your smile, your warmth.
They say we can't remain friends.
I wanted to prove them wrong.
But once again,
I was naive.
My heart won't allow it to happen.
At least not yet.
The problem: I don't want to let go.
But, you have already done so.
Earlier this month, I went on a quick impromptu adventure to Cuyamaca Rancho State Park in Julien, CA with a couple friends. We only spent half an hour in the park frolicking in this field of tall grass, but I certainly have plans on coming back. The greenery and nature are very picturesque and versatile... perfect for those looking for a filming location.
When life seems a little unbearable, it's good to find some time to go on small adventures to keep things fresh and exciting (in a good way), and you can escape from all the craziness for a bit. So, that's what I did.
Over the last three years, I've heard about this "awesome suspension bridge" near North Park/Hillcrest/Balboa Park area. I finally found it, the Spruce Street Suspension Footbridge. During sunset, the sky is painted with a beautiful array of colors and the trees start to become shadows. The bridge sways as people cross it. Couples leave little locks along the sides of the bridge with their initials on them. The ground below the bridge is covered with flowers and foliage. There's a clear trail for people who want to explore for a little more adventure. In the distance, the tops of the buildings in Downtown San Diego are seen. It's certainly a cute spot to take photos or have a picnic.
It can get a little crowded at times, but it's definitely a must see for people looking for hidden treasures in San Diego.
I was recently asked where would I want to travel to if I could leave right now. My answer: Ireland. In 2013, my aunt sent me to Ireland to visit my extended family who lives in Dublin. Between the gorgeous greenery, beautiful architecture, and kind people, I really want to go back and explore.
Until then, here's a look from my 2013 trip...
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